Last Updated on October 15, 2025 by The Unbounded Thinker
In 2017, I immersed myself in spiritual study. I explored ancient spiritual texts, New Age teachings, esoteric ideas, occult practices, and anything spiritual I stumbled upon. From then on, I spent most of my time contemplating the higher intelligence that created the world, the true power of humans, and the true nature of physical reality. I became so obsessed with spirituality that I embraced celibacy for eighteen months, practised lucid dreaming, and even had out-of-body experiences. Yet none of these things convinced me that spirituality was powerful, because deep down, I often felt that my obsession with spirituality was fruitless.
However, recently, I have come to discover the true power of spirituality. I have realized that my spiritual obsession has been silently affecting my inner state even when I thought nothing was happening. I have noticed that it has made it hard for my mind to be in a negative state for a long period. For instance, when anxiety or pessimism arises in my mind, I do not have to chase it away or replace it with positivity. It just disappears on its own. This keeps happening without effort. I seldom use affirmations or any popularised techniques to handle anxiety or any form of pessimism. The mind resets by itself.
I have also noticed a similar experience with negative emotions. If someone or something makes me envious, angry, or sad, I feel these emotions strongly, and they even cause stress. But after a short time, they disappear on their own. I do not have to pray or perform any spiritual practice. The emotions just lose their power effortlessly.
This does not mean that I am always happy and positive. It just means that when my inner state is disturbed, it does not remain in that condition for long. I experience all mental and emotional states like anyone else, but they come and go without attaching themselves to my psyche.
Even when something makes me happy or positive, that state of mind does not last for long. There is a constant awareness within me that no emotion is permanent, whether positive or negative. I clearly see that the universe is rhythmic, and everything moves in cycles, so anything good or bad can happen at any moment. This makes it impossible for me to hold on to happiness or remain in a fixed positive state. I do not try to hold on to positive feelings because I know they will also fade away just like the negative ones.
Therefore, when something good happens, I only feel good for a short period, and then that excitement disappears on its own.
Sometimes I even find myself trying to resist happiness or any positive state of mind because I know that nothing good lasts. I do not fully welcome the external circumstance that causes the positive states of mind because I am highly aware that life is a cycle: the dry season always follows the rainy season. And like all humans, I also try to resist negative states of mind and the external circumstances that bring them. However, the main difference is that my resistance does not remain strong for long. It weakens on its own. It is as if something within me does not allow resistance to continue. Even when I try to fight what is happening, that fight slowly weakens without any effort from me. It’s like something within me forces me to accept whatever happens, whether I like it or not, and for this reason, I am mostly in a calm state of mind.
This is the true power of spirituality that I have noticed. True spiritual power is not always about remaining in a permanent positive state of being. It is a power that prevents you from clinging to any emotional state. It ensures that you strongly experience all states, whether positive or negative, and still return to a calm state of being with ease.
This is what I have discovered from my spiritual journey. All the practices, studies, and strange experiences I went through were not meant to give me constant happiness. They were simply preparing my mind to become stable and unshaken. This is what spirituality has done for me. It has not removed challenges, sadness, worry, anger, envy, or any other negative states of being, but it has removed their ability to control or linger in my inner world for long. To me, this is the true power of spirituality.
